I have had flu at least 5 times this year and that is so unlike me. I have always been blessed with excellent health, this is so odd. The last time I had really had bad flu, my Dr didn't seem too concerned about the flu, but proceeded to ask me 'why are you so run down?'. I explained why I was living in Cape Town for a while, to heal my heart after an extremely abusive marriage.
The doctor sent me off with lots of meds for coughs colds etc but she also encouraged me to see a ppsychiatrist PTS, which was debilitating to say the least. The psychologist was good but I didn't feel that it was helping me move on and so I stopped after about 12 sessions.
I know with out anyone telling me, that my ex has caused irreparable damage to my soul. I know that God loves me and I know that God cares about my future, but there are consequences to bad choices.
The doctor that I went to see today, not my usual one, because my doctor was fully booked. But while listening to my chest, asking me a whole bunch of questions, he then said "What it bothering you so much that your immune system is shot!" Oh boy.... here we go again!
I am supposed to be leaving tomorrow to go up to Johannesburg to attend my grandson's 1st Birthday and Christening, and the doctor said NO, ABSOLUTELY NO. He was a really kind man and his advice was, STOP ABUSING YOURSELF NOW THAT THERE IS NO ONE ELSE TO ! He diagnosed Bronchial Pneumonia and it is really really bad. He then said he wanted me to go into hospital and will still admit me, if I don't show signs in the next 3 - 4 days of getting better.
I feel absolutely awful and I am sharing this here, for other women who have escaped an abusive relationship, it is going to take time... and I think that one should do everything one can, to pamper and love oneself. Something victims are not good at!
I am going off to bed so I won't be around for a while.
Take special care and thank you for your prayers and encouragement'