Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Freedom cont....

I just wanted to be free... free of the past, free of pain, free of abusive people in my life, free... to be me.

1 comment:

Say It In Color said...

Caryl, this is beautiful and we hear you....please realize how important you are in the name of TRUTH....you are not only going through your own healing, but helping others to heal as well....your paintings are beautiful and your digital art. You are cherished! We (my relatives) have had a past of child abuse by an Uncle that everyone refused to see, until he died....my grown brother (I believe a young victim) has no respect for people on a real level except in a false way...I think even the abusers who actually don't even (can't) respect themselves...have seen it or learned it ....who taught it to them? The only way I could forgive my Uncle was in a dream that I KNOW God gave me....a dream where my Uncle was a little innocent boy and came to ask for me to forgive him...the dream was incredible because my uncle was much older....but it was the only time I could EVER see him with any value or innocent or even pity and sorrow...wondering what happened to him to cause him to be the person he always was...til his death. The dream was a gift to me...and it came because I cried so hard to God as a frustrated married woman...the hatred I had inside ...that kept me from being whole and free. Keep it up Caryl...you ARE worth it..you are Jesus' precious little child .... loved and cherished with His pure heart...and He knows our pain.